SOARING

When I was young I used to always fly in my dreams.

I had wings, not actual wings that you could see but I could just fly. I flew all night long, to all kind of places. For years, and years, and years, well into my twentys. When I got older I wanted to know what that meant, me flying everywhere. I read all the books on dream interpretations- it means you are trying to get out of your current status quo.

So my soaring above was a sign of my desires for leaving this small life behind and experiencing the BIG world.

Well I stayed in this big town, well not exactly I moved 10 miles north, now was that the soaring I was dreaming of? Well maybe life was showing me that you didn 't have to live BIG to live.

So here I am , 56 yrs into my small town life. What do I have to show for it? Do I still fly in my dreams? Do I still soar?

Stay tuned for the chapters of my story book.

Committment

I make a conscious new committment to enjoy a conscious loving relationship with a conscious loving man.

#1
I committ to a relationship with a man who is totally honest. I commit myself to unflinching honesty with myself and others. I commit to inviting only honest people into my life.

#2
I commit to a relationship with a man who takes total responsibility for his life, his feelings, his actions and what happens to him. I commit to taking total responsibilityfor my own life, my feelings, and what happens to me.

#3
I commit to a relationship where creativity flourishes for both partners to be totally juiced about their life and all the possiblities and choices.

Weston Jordan

Our grandson, an unexpected, unplanned gift to our fanily. He came in with a fury, fast and furious. I was blessed to be on the receiving end of this miracle and will forever be touched by that moment.
So now he is almost 2, he walks, runs, laughs, talks in sentences and runs us in circles. The gift he continues to give me is Nama, hand Nama, ride Nama, juice Nama I love you Nama see you later all in the sweetest way- he melts me every time. And God knows I need melting. My crazy life is fast and furious from the moment I wake, but he has the ability to soften my tenseness, make me forget my deadlines, he brings out the SOFT in me... I need more soft in my life, starting with me and Weston reminds me of my gift as a woman, it gives me the chance to be a grandmother. To live those precious moments of life-
a little blue eyed toe headed blond with his hands reaching up to me- Nama,,,up.

Thank you Weston Jordan
Your Nama

Fresh Asparagus

It's here. The annual arrival of asparagus. Each morning I walk out to the garden and new shoots are coming up.
This is the third year for the patch, meaning it is mature now and should produce great yields for 15 or 20 yrs. It will come up daily. Enough for a meal for two. I will cut it every day. Hopefully it will produce enough that I can give some way- the ultimate for a gardener( too much for even you).

I eat it raw or just steamed for 3 minutes- little olive oil, S&P and I'm digging in'

Being Present

Today was like every other day in my life of work. I had a client meeting as I do most days but today was different. I choose to LISTEN to the client- really listen. In the past I would hear what the client would say with my ears but my brain was busy solving their PROBLEM. You can't listen when you are talking ( and my brain is talking when I am problem solving). So today I listened---- what I heard was their vision, their dream, their plan. WOW, what a unique experience for me. I plan to be present more- for my clients, my husband, my children and the world itself. I just need to keep QUIET to hear.

Morel Mushrooms

Connecting with nature- It is spring in the midwest and that means "morels". These are unique to a few weeks every spring when the temperature is warming up and moisture is right. I've found my stick, got my sack. My instincts are keen as I have hunted this way for many years. My grandfather taught me the tricks of being a mushroomer, my husband's grandfather taught him. We taught our children. So today I walked into the woods to search for those delicious morels. I hunted for about a half hour when I spot a tiny 1" grey morel. These are always first and mean the climate is right. I return with 8 total 6 greys, but more importantly 2 yellows.. YELLOWS, these are the cadillacs of morels, we all want the biggest yellows we can find.  I will go out every day for the next 10 days to find as many as I can, so will my husband, some of our kids and my parents. When we have enough for a feast I will tell you the secret to the perfect cooked morel. Bon Appetit!

Day 1

Today I commit to being totally conscious. The definition being the relentless practice of being honest with self.

Today I am honest in knowing that I LOVE to run- down the block, around the corner, in the rain, I just love to run..........